I am having a hard time at work
This entry is all for my memory. Feel welcome to read, but you don't have too.
I have worked the same job for 10 years. I love my job. I can not imagine doing any other sort of work. I have been contemplating doing it from home, but not sure how I would approach the situation or if it would even work. I work full time and have a person that works one day a week with me. She also covers my days off and is usually available if I need to call in. There have been three people work this position in the past four years. The current person is a wonderful lady. I will call her "R". She is actually the person that trained me in my position. She retired four years ago and is now back working part time. I really like her and I think we have a great working relationship. Going back to when she retired - the person that came I will call "A". A had a migraine condition. I completely understood because I used to suffer terribly from them as well. She was a good co-worker for a while, but started calling in on her one day that she was supposed to work and would say she would work another day in the week. That day would come and she would do the same thing. I ended up working a lot of days that I had asked to have off. This got old real fast. However, I did not really have a boss that I could go talk to about it. She eventually left while I was 6 months pregnant. Finding someone to fill the position was not easy, but after about a month "C" started and the marathon training began. I had to train fast because had high blood pressure and I could have been told at any moment I needed to stop working. While I was on maternity leave her mother passed away. I went back to work after only being off for 3 1/2 weeks. Dominic went with me for the first week. It was nice because I have my own office and I could lock the door and nurse him and other than change a diaper occasionally, he slept. People would stop in and hold him and someone always fetched me lunch from the cafeteria which was in the other building. My sitter agreed to take him the following week. "C" quit not too long after that. I called "R" to ask her if she knew of anyone looking for a job and she said that she may be. I am so happy to have her. She has always been very accomidating for my days off, etc. However, something always happens that I end up working. These are things that neither one of us have control over. Like her developing horrible stomach pains and having to have tests done. And other things too. She is now having terrible knee problems and found out today that she will need surgery. I feel so bad for her. I want her to get well.
Now - on to my issue....I have been feeling very stressed out. I do not look forward to facing that place everyday. Ideally I would like to go to part time or home work. I so need a day off without thinking of that place. I even went and talked to my boss and told her that I will not be able to be a good employee much longer if I don't get some time off. A vacation is out of the question right now because of R's impending surgery. She will need to be off for some time. I am just so stressed out. I don't even really know who I am any more. I keep doing the same things day in and day out. I have no time for me. I know that is selfish, but I need to dig deep within myself and find who I truly am now days. I love my family, but I need a break. I take care of kids, the house, the bills, laundry, cooking, cleaning, bathing kids, putting kids to bed, etc. I know this is stuff that all parents do. I know I don't do anything extraordinary. I just need to clear my mind. I found out today that our work load is going to be very light this week. I called R and she has agreed to work Thursday and Friday. I am going to have 4 days off. I so need this. Only problem - RJ is home until noon both days. Plus I had a message when I got home that I volunteered to help with Grandparents day at school on Friday and this was just a reminder. Thank goodness for the reminder because I forgot I volunteered. I am actually looking forward to this though. Mackenzie's grandparents are not able to make it. My aunt (my Godmother) offered to be Mackenzie's "grandparent" for a day. I am happy about this because I lost my grandmother a year and a half ago and my aunt has been a great support for me. My grandmother was her mother. I miss my grandma very much. So, I am happy that Mackenzie and I will both be able to spend some time with Aunt S. I work in the same place as my aunt, but it nice to see her away from work.
Anyway, this has gone on to be more than I planned. If you are still reading - thank you. If you have any advice, please share.
Good night.
I have worked the same job for 10 years. I love my job. I can not imagine doing any other sort of work. I have been contemplating doing it from home, but not sure how I would approach the situation or if it would even work. I work full time and have a person that works one day a week with me. She also covers my days off and is usually available if I need to call in. There have been three people work this position in the past four years. The current person is a wonderful lady. I will call her "R". She is actually the person that trained me in my position. She retired four years ago and is now back working part time. I really like her and I think we have a great working relationship. Going back to when she retired - the person that came I will call "A". A had a migraine condition. I completely understood because I used to suffer terribly from them as well. She was a good co-worker for a while, but started calling in on her one day that she was supposed to work and would say she would work another day in the week. That day would come and she would do the same thing. I ended up working a lot of days that I had asked to have off. This got old real fast. However, I did not really have a boss that I could go talk to about it. She eventually left while I was 6 months pregnant. Finding someone to fill the position was not easy, but after about a month "C" started and the marathon training began. I had to train fast because had high blood pressure and I could have been told at any moment I needed to stop working. While I was on maternity leave her mother passed away. I went back to work after only being off for 3 1/2 weeks. Dominic went with me for the first week. It was nice because I have my own office and I could lock the door and nurse him and other than change a diaper occasionally, he slept. People would stop in and hold him and someone always fetched me lunch from the cafeteria which was in the other building. My sitter agreed to take him the following week. "C" quit not too long after that. I called "R" to ask her if she knew of anyone looking for a job and she said that she may be. I am so happy to have her. She has always been very accomidating for my days off, etc. However, something always happens that I end up working. These are things that neither one of us have control over. Like her developing horrible stomach pains and having to have tests done. And other things too. She is now having terrible knee problems and found out today that she will need surgery. I feel so bad for her. I want her to get well.
Now - on to my issue....I have been feeling very stressed out. I do not look forward to facing that place everyday. Ideally I would like to go to part time or home work. I so need a day off without thinking of that place. I even went and talked to my boss and told her that I will not be able to be a good employee much longer if I don't get some time off. A vacation is out of the question right now because of R's impending surgery. She will need to be off for some time. I am just so stressed out. I don't even really know who I am any more. I keep doing the same things day in and day out. I have no time for me. I know that is selfish, but I need to dig deep within myself and find who I truly am now days. I love my family, but I need a break. I take care of kids, the house, the bills, laundry, cooking, cleaning, bathing kids, putting kids to bed, etc. I know this is stuff that all parents do. I know I don't do anything extraordinary. I just need to clear my mind. I found out today that our work load is going to be very light this week. I called R and she has agreed to work Thursday and Friday. I am going to have 4 days off. I so need this. Only problem - RJ is home until noon both days. Plus I had a message when I got home that I volunteered to help with Grandparents day at school on Friday and this was just a reminder. Thank goodness for the reminder because I forgot I volunteered. I am actually looking forward to this though. Mackenzie's grandparents are not able to make it. My aunt (my Godmother) offered to be Mackenzie's "grandparent" for a day. I am happy about this because I lost my grandmother a year and a half ago and my aunt has been a great support for me. My grandmother was her mother. I miss my grandma very much. So, I am happy that Mackenzie and I will both be able to spend some time with Aunt S. I work in the same place as my aunt, but it nice to see her away from work.
Anyway, this has gone on to be more than I planned. If you are still reading - thank you. If you have any advice, please share.
Good night.
posted by lightshines at 9:17 PM
1 Comments:
Stephanie, I know this is an old post but I just read it. I hope things get better soon. Maybe RJ could help more with the kids, esp. on weekends? I hope you are feeling better by now...
Mal in TN
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